I have decided

My head feels like it is about to explode! Jose and I spent the past week in Baton Rouge, LA at Bethany World Prayer Center (a church) They have a yearly conference called The Remnant and it was amazing! I have been to a lot (and I do mean a lot) of conferences and this was the best I can remember attending. The speakers were Dag Heward-Mills (google him he will blow your mind!) Dino Rizzo, Robert Morris, Pastor Larry Stockstill, Pastor Joel Stockstill and Jonathon Stockstill.

I will probably be talking about stuff I learned/heard at the conference for a long time but there is something that God stirred in me when I was there that I feel I should mention here. I have been softening and in a way apologizing for the call for us to go to Peru. I've told people that it's just like parts of America and we won't be in a dangerous area etc... I've said those things for a good reason I think but in reality I shouldn't have said that at all.
Matthew 10:38 If you refuse to take up your cross and follow me you are not worthy of being mine
Matthew 16:24 Then Jesus said to his disciples "if any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me"
The cross = suffering I know this and I have known this. Ministry isn't easy. Ministry in a foreign country is really not easy and yes we could die or get seriously injured/sick etc... I am prepared for that (as much as I can be) Something Dag Heward-Mills said stuck with me though. He talked about the way Muslims are willing to die for what they believe in. Even though they are portrayed as villians there are more and more people becoming muslim. Because people are willing to follow something if other people are willing to die for it. American Christians generally aren't willing to die for their faith. So here I am saying I don't think I'm going to die by going to Peru. I don't have a death wish either. I hope to live a long and useful (to Christ) life. But if I die I hope that I will glorify God in my death as much if not more than in my life.
Matthew 16:25-26 If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul?

I have decided to follow Jesus...no turning back, no turning back