Mama love part 2

It's amazing how much my little boys make me laugh. I mean really, who knew you can be angry at someone because they just smashed an entire roll of oreo cookies into the carpet that you just vacuumed (thank God for multi color carpet that does not look nasty) one moment and then laughing at them the next because of the growly voiced "cookie monso!" with oreo's coming out of their mouth just like the real cookie monster.
Some days I really think I'm not cut out for this "mom thing" but then I cuddle one of my beautiful boys. Wipe away a tear. Listen to them playing them together (or alone) and I'm reminded why I do this. Why I clean up mess after mess after mess...I can't imagine a better life without them. My house might be cleaner...no it would definitely be cleaner. I would probably have more time to do the things I want to, and I would probably still have some of the brain cells I seem to have misplaced. But I would miss out on the "mommy, blow me a kiss, now throw me a kiss! I caught it! Catch my kiss mommy!" the climbing on me while I'm trying to fold laundry, or use the computer. The feeling of their little hands in mine, and best of all the laughter!

I'm trying to hold on to these things. Trying to remember the important things. I don't ever want to look back on this time and think. If only I had enjoyed them. If only I had sat down and watched that movie with them or pretended to be the monster or the princess that needed saving from the monster. If only I had read one more book to them. I'm learning a part of living life to the fullest involves doing things you really don't *want* to do but will regret later if you don't. Now I need to go, there are two little boys that need to hear a story and get a hug and blow me a kiss then throw me a kiss before they go to bed :)